Nine months ago my biggest concern was moving from there back to here. All the packing and stress of cramming to rambunctious
kids into a stuffy truck. And of course the long 1000 mile drive thru
three states. Getting the kids re-adjusted and settled back in to a
slightly crazy house. (Hey large family life is bound to be slightly
crazy! lol). Now I am going back to school and the kids are starting
preschool. Crazy, I know!
It has been 6 yrs since I was last in school. I am somewhat scared but
also so very excited to go back to school. My decision to go back to
school was not an easy one or one I took lightly. But I feel it was the
best decision. Most ppl in my position, a wife and mom of two, would
tell you they are going back because of their children...whether it
would be so they will be an example to their kids or so they can better
their kids lives. And while my kids will always be a factor in every
decision I make, I did not decide to go back for them. I made the
decision ultimately for me. (I know, sounds selfish but hey I have a
right to be somewhat selfish every once in a while!) I want to go learn,
to challenge myself. To enrich my mind. The last few yrs, I have been
restless and bored. I know what you are thinking. "What?! How can she be
bored w/ 2 kids especially so close in age?! She is totally crazy!" And
you are right. Being a stay-at-home mom is not easy by any means or
boring since the kids are always doing something or getting into
something.
But kids do grow up and they do need you less and less as time goes on.
So you find yourself w/ more and more free time. (And let's face it,
while the kids are watching their favorite shows/movies for the
millionth time, you are totally not interested in it anymore). So you
find things to fill your time. Lil hobbies. Reading that book you
have had sitting around forever. That is what I did. I read. I just flew
threw books. (Fast reader). Soon I was going through series. At one
point I was reading seven different series. It was during those times,
that I realized I was bored.
Not bored of being a stay-at-home mom or a wife. But in life, yes. I
felt like I was at a stand still in a way. The kids were reaching the
point where they wanted and needed to start preschool which means I
wasn't needed as much. But that was my role...the stay-at-home mom. I
also realized I craved knowledge. I wanted to be challenged in new ways.
To push my limits (not just the kids pushing them. lol) So I decided I
wanted to go back to school and this fall was the perfect time to do it
since we had planned on the kids getting enrolled in preschool this fall anyway.
So we start a new chapter in our lives on Monday. I am going to the
School of Mines for Electrical Engineering. I have all my school
supplies ready to go. Our new desk for our office should be here in a
few days. So I will have a place to study w/o the kids. The kids are
excited to start school. Lil J has been bugging me about it all
summer! lol.
I know that this all will take adjusting to for all of us and that there
will be a period of trial-and-error. But that is ok. I also know there might be challenging
times ahead but I feel we will get through it all. Just like we have
before. What doesn't kill ya, only makes ya stronger!
So here is to my new and exciting chapter in my somewhat insane life!
